Bord and a little sick

I've been reading some poetry that I wrote a while ago. I don't know why this one in particular stuck in my head today. I went looking for it and as I was going through the pile of poems that are tucked away in my book, I decided to read them all just to see how far I've come since I started that pile. It appears that I'm still at the beginning. *Sighs* Oh well. I'm the only one who can change that I guess. Anyway, here's a nother "untitled" one that I wrote a long while ago. Oh yes, I encourage everyone to leave a comment. Good or bad it doesn't matter. Feel free.

I gaze at your beautiful face
Longing for a taste
Had a fucked up feeling ever since I left your place
My body aches
My mind does race
I lose control everytime we meet
You took me down a long street
Through a dark and damp back road
Your eyes are so daring and bold
But your heart is made of gold
You bring me up and bring me down
I wear a smile, but I frown
Then you come along and stand at my side
You hold my hand and take me on a ride
Images of us spin around in my head
When I'm alone here in my bed
Empty but warm
Everyday I fight the storm
The wind and rain will somedy slow
I held you in my hand and felt you grow
Don't be like me and over analize what we say
It will all unravel itself someday
One way or another
Your body will shudder
I'm afraid to touch you too much baby
'Cuz makin' love to you might drive me crazy
I have to leave for work in a short time
But I want to stay and fool you more with my rhyme
You're addictive like the drugs I intake
You're both in and out of my life so fast and leave me feeling fake
I see your face at night
In my dreams it seems so right
It's so nerve racking when I'm next to you
You scare me and I don't know what to do
I put on my little play, my song and dance
You say one word or give one look, right away, I fall into a trance
You're a sad little man, so I rip off all your clothes
I hold you in my hand and feel you grow
We're young, dumb, and ready to come
But I stay at my side fo the room
You scare me but I frighten myself even more
He once told me that I freak him out, but have you ever thought that it might be you?
Did you ever scare yourself with our own thoughts of me?
No, of course not! I'm nobody's prize!
It's because of my mouth and my size
I should be able to speak my mind without you getting all screwy eyed!
My words should be no surprise
Do you think they'll like me? I hope they do
If not, I sure as hell ain't gonna change for them, let alone you!
So sick and tired of hanging myself out on the line
You have no idea how fuckin' scarry it is!
Neither one of us has any sense of time,
and you look so damn fine, you don't even know
I hold you in my hand and feel you grow
It's time for me to leave now
I'm an open book, I'll figure you out some how
I have tricks and schems of my own
I held you in my hand and heard you groan
It only happens in my dreams that you howel and moan
A ring comes through from the phone
And I am awakened from my magical slumber.

That's it. Leave comments!

Poetic Pains Wrote On 7:55 PM
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Wet feet wrong bus

Had my interview. It was good. I wasn't nervous at all. I was myself though the whole thing. The lady who interviewed me said that she would call me at the end of the week. I'm waiting on a few calls this week. I fuckin better get something out of it.
Well, well, well, Guess who got the GD flu next? ME!!! That's what I get for walking the George in a blizzard with no coat. Stupid girl! I could feel it start when I got on the bus this afternoon. And of course, I had to get my feet wet before I got on the bus. That ain't the best part. The freakin bus didn't stop until it was way, way past the place i had to go. With all the snow we got the weekend, the sidewalks are covered and burried deep, so I decided to walk on the road with the traffic. You won't splash me now you fuckers. I walked through all the puddles. Then after the interview, I had to walk to the mall to get the next bus home. More puddles to walk through. I was fuckin soaked and I'm some glad that I wore my big pimp jacket out today. It was friggin cold out and wet snow blowing everywhere. I gets to the mall, I go into the bank so that I can get some money changed. I was in that line up for almost 45 minutes. After that, I went upstairs to wait for the bus. Route 4 was coming in about 10-15 minutes, so I went outside to have a smoke. While I was smoking, the bus that runs Route 3 pulls up and sits there. By now I've finished my smoke, i'm freezing to death, looking at my watch and realizes that Route 4 is a few mins late. I thought to myself, 'Sheldon took Route 3 to work today. This bus will drop me off right in front of the building.' So I hops on de ol' bus, planks my arse down and I know that this will be a longer route so I'm all ready for a little sight seeing, I didn't have anything else that I wanted to do today. Well besides clean. About 45 mins into this ride, I finally realize that Sheldon DID NOT take Route 3, he took Route 5! Once the bus pulled back into the Avalon, I told the bus driver that I was on the wrong bus and asked for a transfer. I went into the mall, looked at the bus schedule and saw that Route 4 was going to be here in 15 minutes. I saw a feller with some Sobeys bags and I remembered that I have to pick up a few groceries. I'm standing there debating weather or not I want to catch the next one which will be round by 5:00, (at this point its 4:15), I'm reminded how cold and wet I am, so I said shag it, I'm going the fuck home now! Well, Route 4 came, and that ride took almost 45 minutes to get home in. On the way to the apartment, I was trudging through the snow this time instead of the road. The bus was in my way when I got off so I had to walk through the snow and once the bus left, I didn't see much point in getting out of the snow since I was already in it. So I took off like a shot, darting through the traffic as usual. :-) Got in the door, stipped off all me wet clothes and now I'm sitting here in my jammies again, with a housecoat, slippers, and I have myself wrapped up in Sheldon's blanket. I have some chores to do now da once, laundry, and get in the shower. Blah.

Poetic Pains Wrote On 11:54 PM
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To strip or not to strip

Tell Me Something Good Lyrics

You ain't got no kind of feeling inside
I got something that'll sho nuff set yo' stuff on fire
You refuse to put anything before your pride
What i got will knock your pride aside

Chorus:
Tell me something good
Tell me that you love me, yeah
Tell me something good
Tell me that you like it, yeah

Got no time is what you're known to say
I'll make you wish there was 48 hours to each day
Your problem is you ain't been loved like you should
What i got to give will sho nuff do you good.


While I was on my little site seeing tour yesterday, we passed the Pickidelly (sp)?. And Yes, it crossed my mind for like two minutes. In those two minutes, I had thought about my little outfit, the song I would use and a routine. Hahahaha. So last night while Lesley and Mike went to the grocery store, I put on a little Chaka Khan & Rufus, and had a little dance for myself out in the kitchen. :-D Just trying out my little routine and see how it went. Hehehe. Sheldon was at work through the whole ordeal, thank goodness. It wasn't a pretty sight. oh man, if the kitchens' door ways could talk....They'd probably say "let go of me, stop pulling and squeezng me, we're not your pole!" Haha. No I'm not considering working there....yet. But if worse comes to worse, I don't know. I'll just have to see what happens. My mother called me last night and I told her about working there. She obviously didn't know what it was, so I told her. She freaked. Hahaha it was so funny. She was like, you'd better not, don't be so foolish, Jennifer don't you dare! Hee hee. What a trip it would be if I did eh? Now, what could my stage name be I wonder? Hhhmmm. Hahahahaha

Poetic Pains Wrote On 6:15 PM
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Dream a little dream of me

Ha Ha. Had an EXCELLENT dream early this morning, that was followed by a nightmare, of course. It just wouldn't be the same if I didn't have at least one nightmare during my sleep. Fluck sakes :-( Sheldon was in BOTH of them. Lesley was in my nightmare. Sheldon woke me up right in the middle of my nightmare, thank God for that. I couldn't bare to watch Shel and some missus bump and grind any longer!
George Street was a complete disaster. There was no one out. The most I seen on the dance floors at one time was like 6 people. I got one dance in. That was at Normies I think. We went to three different clubs. I was fuckin loaded and paranoid. I couldn't relax for one second. All the mirrors that surrounded us at every jesus club we went to, kept ruining my buzz, and making me feel really self conscious. I wouldn't have felt so paranoid if Sheldon or Mike was with us. But the fact that it was just us little girls, made me very aware of my surroundings. I did, however, manage to have some fun. I got out of the house, and got the "rush" that I was CRAVING for the last three weeks. I'm sure that people do it all the time, but I think that what we did, was very dangerous. A good laugh afterwards, but shit could have went down. I hope that it's all out of my system now. I don't want to become one of those people who have top everything they do. God help me if I try to top this. It's just as well to throw me in a darkened ally down on the George. Hahahhahahaha. I'm so foolish. Nah I'll be alright now. I have an interview today at 3:00. Sheldon was giving me directions to it eariler. I hope to fuck I can find it. It's so stormy out today, I'm in no freakin mood to be out walking in this. I'm not getting dressed up for this one, fucken forget it, not getting a call back from these people isn't worth the bloody cold.
I'm enjoying myslef here right now, I don't wanna get out of my jammies and get in the shower. I have to tho, I need $$$. I shouldn't belly ache at all. I should be thanking my lucky stars that I have an interview today. But what I wouldn't give to go back to my good dream that I had this morning. It's the first time that I actually finished the dream. I want to dream it all over again. Mmmmmm. It has sparked my appatite immensly today. Huh, lets see how good I sleep tonight. Doubtful! Just have to wait and see I guess. ;-)

Poetic Pains Wrote On 5:48 PM
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Drunk

On me way to the George soon. Just sippin on me beer and havin a little chatty chat with Amanda. God love her. Sheldon and I went to see a movie today. "Man on Fire"! It's an awesome movie. Everyone should go and see it. I'm not a fan of action movies, but let me tell you, it is worth going to see. Believe me! Well i don't know what telst to type right now. and i have to go pee. Will write again tomrorow. yes I will. Sone one start leaving some fucking comments for fuck sakes. It anin't there for looks u know. :-D

Poetic Pains Wrote On 4:05 AM
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Fright Night

It is now 8:07 am. What the fuck am I doing up this early you ask, well I'll tell ya. Got some laundry to do this morning, (that is in the dryer now), got the sweeping done, I can't do the dishes cuz it's not my turn, and around here if u do the dishes and it's not your turn everyone freaks out and then will try to make up for it by doing yours or something like that. It's nice I guess, but these people do not realize how freakin board I am. I practicly had to beg Lesley to let me vaccumm the other day. LOL. Anyway, I have to make a few phone calls this morning, and I'm waiting on one or two, all for different jobs. I have some more job emailing to do this morning, as well as snail mail to send out. My christ, SOMEONE HIRE ME!!!!
Well last night Sheldon said that he had to work at 8:15 this morning and that he was going to get up at 6:00, so I told him to wake me when he gets up. He called me 6ish. I thought that he said it was 20 after six, when I sleepilly asked him what time was it. But that couldn't have been what he said becuase when I came out of the bathroom and had my bed half made, it was 6:20 then. I have no idea what he said or what else I might have said to him, if anything. Hahahahahaha.
Ohhhhhh so tired this morning. Last night was soooooooo long! Sheldon went to bed early last night, which is the smart thing to do. I, on the other hand, am not capable of doing such a thing. I still have to wait until I'm tired enough to go to bed, no matter how early I'll be getting up. Depending on what I have to get up for, I'll usually pop some sleeping pills, but not last night. I'm trying to stay away from the drugs as much as I possibly can. I only recentily realized that I've become addicted to the pain killers that I've been taking for my back ever since I moved here. That's y my moods have been so strange the last two or three days. Going through withdral I spose. I know it has nothing to do with my period because I'm usually depressed, sookie, and cuddly all at the same time when it comes to my period. I ran out of pills during the weekend I think it was, and I didn't get around to getting to the drug store for them. My back was doing alright, so I didn't think anything of it. I haven't been able to sleep, more then usual, since then, and when I am sleeping, i've been extremly easily awaken. And my moods, oh my goodness, "Schyco woman!" Thank goodness I was by myself for most of it and my roommates missed out on it. One minute I was happy, then most of the time I was either angry, feeling lost, and/or left out and rejected somehow. Don't ask where those last two came from, I don't know. I've felt lost from the first day I got here, that's normal for me now.
Anyway, where the hell was I going with this? Maybe a nice cup of relaxing tea will help me.
5 MINUTES LATER
Aaawwww, nothing like a strong cup of tea and some 80's music to put me in a good mood. *SINGS* "Watchout here I come! You spin me right round baby, right round, like a record baby, right round, round, round." I remember Sheldon and I gettin' on down to this song a few years ago at the 'Zone'. Back in 2002 actually, that's when I met everyone! :-D
Now, where was I? Oh yes, fright night. Hahahaha. I went to bed around 12:30. I wasn't asleep for very long, i'm sure of it, when Mike came out in the living room and grabbed my foot and yelled my name. Scared the crap out of me he did. God love him. It was funny. Then about an hour later, I was frightenend again by a loud annoying ring right in my ear. That scared the crap out of me too. This was Lesley. She had put one of Mike's CB Radio's next to my head on my pillow. Hahahahhahahaha. That was a good prank I must say. I thought it was extremly funny at the time. Then after Lesely and Mike when back into the room, I was too afraid to go back to sleep. My nerves were a little shot. So after an hour of tossing and turning, huffing and puffing, I got up and decided that maybe a cigarette would put me to sleep. I had been trying to avoid resorting to that, but i knew that I wanted to get up early, and the usuall waiting for sleep to take over was just not working. So I got up, rolled two smokes, then asked Les if she wanted to have one with me. She said yes, so we went out to have a smoke at 3:00 in the morning, and were lauging about the prank she pulled on me. God love her. Well it was about 20 minutes after the smoke was done, I finally fell back to sleep. Then the next thing I know, Sheldon is calling me awake, I know that I was mumbling something to him, I don't know what, but I'm sure it was something retarded. The other night, when Mike walked passed me in the living room, I was asleep, to go out for a smoke, I rolls over in my sleep and says to him in all seriousness "Mike, who's crawling on the floor?" I remember him telling me that there was no one on the floor, then I asked him was he sure, he said yes, I had no other choice but to believe him, so I just said ok, then rolled over and went back to sleep. Hahahahahahaha. I'm such a retard.
I've been sitting here ever since Sheldon left for work this morning, 7:30ish I think. It's too early in the morning to have music blastin in my ears already. But I can't help it. I LOVE Music. It's the only thing that gets me through. Janice can attest to that one for me. She knows me inside and out! And she is STILL friends with me after all this time and bullshit. She must love me! God knows how much I love her and how much I appreciate everything that she's done for me and been through with me. Oh yes, and Jan, I know you'll be reading this so I'll tell you here. I forgot to mention on the phone the other night, hahahahaha, u ready for this one? Mom is letting Jeffrey smoke in the house now. Only in the "computer room" a.k.a. 'my old room.' Yes man, Jeffrey was telling me the other day, that he actually asks mom for a smoke, sometimes a couple. And you know what, she gives them to him! Can u believe that? That ain't the best part. Only u knows how retarded my mother is. I asked Jeff what did mom say about him smoking, and do u know what she said? OMG I'm cracking up laughing now as I type. She told Jeffrey to get a job! Hahahahahaha, Jan, isn't that hillarious? Remember when Jeff was in court, brought up on charges, and it came out that he was smoking, and mom was all like "smoking? Whats this smoking?" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. It's a wonder I'm not as fucked up as I could be eh?
Oh my wicked stuff, wicked, wicked.
Man, I'm not gonna to be fit once the pain from my period finally hits me. What r the odds that Lesley has her's too! I pitty Mike and Sheldon. Poor fuckers. Gotta put up with us being in this state. Hahahahhahaha. We'll owe u one b'ys. ;-)

Poetic Pains Wrote On 1:48 PM
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Poem

I sold my love today at 11:59
It was given to me 1 minute after that time
Three years ago on New Years Day
I made Five lousy dollars on a sunny day
Just enough to cart my ass around on the bus

At 11:59, I sold my band of gold
I promised, together we'd grow old
You made that pomise too
I didn't expect you to make me blue
Like the five dollar bill the man gave me in exchange for our love

Our love that went stale
Now I can't even look at another male
You left me with so many wounds that have to heal on there own
I honestly don't know where to start
I'm never any good at that part

I sold your ring that I used to wear with pride
I can't look at it anymore, you are no longer at my side
There was always more hate then love
More jelousy then trust
A thousand thrusts' of lust

Poetic Pains Wrote On 12:58 AM
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BITE

Here's a story I've been working on for a couple of weeks. I'm stuck. I need suggestions or perhaps some inspiration. Please leave a comment or email me.

The rain pounded against the windows of the darkened guestroom. The shutters slammed against the house, and the wind howled through the trees. The young girl laid still in her bed, clutching her blankets, holding her breath, and squeezing her eyes shut, waiting for the horrid night to be over. She had never known storms such as this. She had only seen them in movies.
The swaying of the tree branches outside portrayed creepy shadows on the walls of her room and on her bed. The young girl had been watching the shadows on her walls for about five minutes when she saw the shadow of a man run by. She gasped and clutched the blankets even harder and closer to her pale, naked body. Again! The same shadow! It looked as if the shadow ran to the foot of her bed. She was afraid to look, but she just had to. The fear and adrenaline rising inside her forced her to turn her head and avert her eyes to the darkness. There he was! He was very tall and strong. The young girl couldn't quite see his face. She wanted to see his face. She ventured to lean forward. As she did, there was a loud clap of thunder and repeated flashes of lightening.
The young girl saw his face, his body. He was beautiful. His skin was even more pale then hers. And his eyes, they were black as the night, glistening, as he peered down at her. Piercing her. She shivered. This mysterious man slowly moved forward as he gently knelt on the foot of the bed. Now they were both sitting face to face.
The young girl felt hypnotized, paralysed in his gaze. She started to chew on her finger nails. The man reached out and pulled her hand away from her mouth, and brought it to his, he delicately kissed and sucked on her fingertips. He held her in his stare. Reading her thoughts, he kissed the palms of her hands. He kissed all around her palms not taking his eyes away from hers for one second. She quivered, as his tongue swirled between each slender finger. At that moment he released her hands and pulled the blanket away from her to reveal her nakedness. His eyes shifted from hers, as he gazed upon her naked beauty. Human beauty! Which he craved. Night after night, he drank his fill of the most beautiful woman the world had to offer. Would tonight be any different? Maybe! The young girl was no longer afraid. She no longer saw him as a man, but as a beast. Being aware of this creature, she knew she was under his spell. He had total control over her mind, over her body, over her soul. She reached out her hand and caressed his face. He was taken aback. Never before had a woman ever tired to touch him. Had he gone to far with his power tonight? Did she catch a glimpse into his world? Into his bleeding heart? Into his aching soul? He started to draw away from her when she pulled him towards her. She hungered for the taste of his lips. He followed along and was lost inside her warm embrace. As she traced her tongue along his lips, he encircled her body with his strong arms. His tongue met hers as he took sole possession of her mouth.
The young girl slowly pulled away from him, licked her lips and savoured the sweet taste this Prince of Darkness had left there. She opened her eyes and saw that he to was now naked. She took pleasure in the illustrious sight. She had seen naked men before, but not one that captured such attraction, fascination, and allurement. He was devastatingly beautiful. The young girl was suddenly afraid to touch him. He was aware of her every thought, every fantasy that laid locked away, every desire she ever longed for. He, too, wanted to feel her warm caress against his cold skin. Never before had he reacted this way towards a human. He placed her hands on his chest and whispered, "Don't be afraid, I will not hurt you. There's nothing you can do that's wrong."
The young girl took comfort in his words. She started a rhythm with her hands. Smoothing his arms, his shoulders, his neck, his face. The texture of his skin was inhuman like. It thrilled her! She couldn't get enough. She glided her fingers down his chest, then along his stomach.
She looked into the creatures eyes, looking for signs of assurance. She saw it there. With that, the young girl moved her hand below his stomach and encompassed his fierce erection with her long fingers. She began to move her hand in an up and down motion. The creature groaned and leaned forward to take all of her mouth with a kiss, deep with passion. The young girl met his lips with equal force.
The beast moved her hands away from him, and linked his fingers with hers as he pressed himself on top of her. The young girl had never felt such power from a kiss before. She felt strange things. She no longer felt in control of her body, her actions, or her emotions. Everything inside her was running wild with every kiss he pressed onto her skin, every touch, every move he made to her body.
He dragged his lips away from hers and lightly kissed the dimple on her chin. He avoided looking at her neck as much as he possibly could. It was too soon to take her life. He indulged in the toying, the teasing, the pleasure he brought to these women. More so tonight then ever before. He was upon new territory and couldn't figure out what was so different about this woman. She was just a human. His source of food. The feeling nagged at him. He knew there was no way that he could end this young woman's life. What was so different about her? He left a trail of hot kisses down her chest, to her breasts. He took a nipple into his mouth and gently nibbled on it. The young girl groaned aloud.
Lightening flashed and the thunder pounded hard. All of a sudden, the spell, became broken. He lost his power over her. He could feel it leave him. He savagely lifted his head from her breasts and looked deep into her eyes. The beast saw something flash in them. Out of no where, the young girl over powered him. She pushed him off of her and pinned him to the bed.
In a deep and raging voice said, "I know who you are! I know what you are! I have been calling to you, longing for you night after night. Why have you not come until now?"
The young girl didn't give him a chance to answer. Her mouth came crashing down on his.
He had had enough. He needed to feel himself inside of her. It was a power struggle. Somehow, he managed to take control again and flipped her on her back. With her hands pinned above her head, he gently placed himself inside of her. He was careful not to hurt her. She felt tight around him. The beast groaned, and the young girl squirmed with pleasure. He released her hands and kissed her passionately, as he thrust back and forth inside her. He could feel her tightening around him more and more with every stroke. She was about to cum. So was he. The young girl dug her fingernails into his shoulder blades as she reached full orgasm. She screamed and moaned. A grin of satisfaction crossed his face. After a few more pushes, he too was fulfilled. The beast howled into the night.
At that moment an old lady burst through the door. It was the owner of the house. She heard the strange howl and came to check on the young girl to make sure she was alright. The old lady did not expect to see the young girl in a provocative position. The last time she checked, the girl was alone.
The beast got a start when the old woman came in through the door, and interrupted this intimate ritual. He whipped his head up and glared at the old woman. His eyes burned through her. The old woman was frozen with fear. The vampire could not bare to take the young girls' life. So he quickly pulled himself out of the young girl, leaped on the old woman, and drank from her neck. He could feel her rapid heart beat come to a slow, as her blood coursed through his veins. The beast came once again.
The young girl watched in horror at the gruesome ordeal that was taking place in the doorway of her room.

Poetic Pains Wrote On 11:27 PM
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La La La La La La!

Went to a call center, that shall remain nameless, today for orientation. It was good. I thought that I'd be there for like an hour MAYBE two. But we were there for 5 hours! I was sat in a hard chair with thongs on for 5 hours! Ouch! then the bus ride was a half hour long. Oh my poor ass was some sore. I couldn't wait to get home and put on a pair of my granny panties. Oh me nerves.
Saw Todd there before I left. He was telling me a story about yesterday when he was on the bus, (Route 7), there was a dirty old man, sitting in the seat behind him jerking off. Blah! Gross!
Well I guess things like that are expected in a place such as this. Hahahaha. I knows he mother ain't gonna die laughing when she hears that.
Went downtown yesterday with the roommies. Had a blast, of course! It was so warm here yesterday. Ohhh there's nothing I enjoy more then the warm wind on my face.
I slept some good the other night. I was feeling rather lonely, and for some strange reason, I love to get naked when I'm in that mood, strange I know. Anyway, I went to bed naked that night, and once the pains were done shooting up my back, I drifted off to sleep. I slept through the whole night, and slept a little later then usuall too. It was well needed let me tell ya. So the next night, (last night), I did the same thing, and I tossed and turned for a VERY LONG time! I don't know what was so different. Must have been the mood change. I wasn't feeling as lonely last night. I was in a pretty good mood actually. ;-)

Poetic Pains Wrote On 10:56 PM
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Happiness for everyone!!!

What an awesome weekend I had! To think, I almost let my nerves get the best of me and miss it all. Never again b'y! I would have missed out on soooooo much fun, sooooo many wonderful people, new friends, and old.

Poetic Pains Wrote On 6:16 PM
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Falling asleep

I got a job today! It only pays like $60, if that much, a week, but hey, it will pay for my groceries for the week. It's a helluva lot better then nothing. I said that I would take anything while I'm waiting for a real job. I start Friday, maybe. It all depends on if the fliers come in that day. Yes I will be delivering fliers. At least I'll be getting my exercise in. And I also get to pick my own hours. I just came from a job where I did that. I love those jobs. Well I stupidly locked myself out of the apartment building today. I went to put the garbage out and forgot I don't have a key. How stun! I'm so glad that there was a lady who came out of the building about two minutes after I came out. She let me back in. God love her. I was out picking up all the cigarette butts today thats out in front. There was a lot there. It filled the bottom of the shopping bag. I used my right hand, and ever since then my fingers in my right hand feel awefully stiff. I didn't fall alseep until 6:30 this morning and then Sheldon woke me up at 10:00. I get him to do that every morning. I don't know why becuase I usually don't move through the door until 2 pm sometimes. But I just hate sleeping the morning away. No matter how tired I am. The morning is the best part of the day. My sleeping, or I should say lack of, has gotten worse lately! I've just got too much on my mind I guess. Once I get a sensible job, and I know that there's $$$ rolling in, I'm sure I'll be alright. Well as good I get anyway when it comes to sleeping. I'm not particually fond of sleeping. I'm actually afraid to go to sleep. I'm afraid that I'm going to go to sleep and then never wake up again. Foolish eh? 22 years old and that's the kind of shit going through my mind. Among other things that flow around in there all the time. I worry over everything anyway, and usually stupid shit. But I DON'T worry like I used to. I'll give myself that much. I have NEW stupid shit to worry about now. LOL.

Poetic Pains Wrote On 11:16 PM
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